Opening the subconscious...

Its always hard to start the first few words of writing.

To open up oneself to the wide world of the internet is also a risk that is not often taken by secretive persons like myself. But I owe it to me to write about the great pain that I am feeling write now.

For a person who has lost everything in his life except an understanding family and a few supportive friends, i can still consider myself lucky. I can still breathe. I can still force a smile and a laughter...

that's all for now